Tuesday, February 16, 2010

Signs of Brain Plaque

I worked on remodeling and moving for two months straight. When all that insanity was finally over I crashed for two weeks. Thankfully a understanding good friend tried to keep me encouraged. I could have blamed it on being in my first trimester of my pregnancy still... and It also could have been aluminum exposure or brain plaque... Most likely now in hind sight I can see that my friend was correct, I was just worn out and needed to recoup. It was a hard two weeks to sleep and sleep and sleep and get the bare minimums done of feeding the kids and keeping the kitchen clean. I was rather impatient with myself and very frustrated.

Thankfully now that things have calmed down we eat at home all the time. This makes a big difference with aluminum exposure. Even when being careful I was being exposed to aluminum while eating out, it is really quite a trick to accomplish. Now I have no sources of aluminum exposure in my little "safety net" at home. But still signs of aluminum plaque is there.

One day my friend and neighbor dropped off her kids for a play date with my kids. I was going to write down her cell phone # so I could call her if/ when the kids were done playing. I sat there with a blank paper in front of me because I could not remember her name. I guess, if I was thinking, I could have just written down her phone number and add in her name when my brain remembered it again... Instead I asked her for her name, she looked offended, like "you don't remember my name?" sigh... got to love plaque.

At work I am always forgetting my passwords, sitting in front of a screen asking my brain to please pull up the important information so I can log into work... But I think that is somewhat normal right? Many people forget their passwords... especially because they always change.

I still forget some tasks I am working on in mid task. I still ... I just forgot what I was going to write next..

I can not complete a prayer. I am sure the Lord understands and forgives my forgetfulness. I will kneel down to pray and start into my prayer..... then within a little while I will "wake up" and realise I am talking about random stuff in my brain that has nothing to do with my prayer. At that point I always apologise and close the prayer. Thankfully if I am saying a prayer out loud I can complete it, but when I am saying silent prayer, I rarely ever complete it.

I still do not remember what I was going to write above. There are more signs of plaque but I am not remembering them right now.

Friday, January 22, 2010

After I ate Wendys I

After I ate Wendys I felt aluminumified. My guess is there was aluminum in a special sauce or cheese sauce.

Wednesday, January 20, 2010

I am up to my

I am up to my eyeballs in boxes, and having a hard time knowing where to start. Dont think, just do, seems to be what I need.

I am texting from my

I am texting from my cell phone. I have slept all day. I am going to blame that on being prego. I just moved in last week.

Sunday, January 17, 2010

Wendys

Wendys

Dont eat
Pickels
Cheese sauce
nuggets
Chrispy Chicken
fish
tater sauce


Good
French fries
Salads

Carls Jr.

I looked at Carl's Jr today to see what I could eat there... The list had allot good on it

Can eat...
teriyaki burger
western bacon burger
guacamole burger
all six dollar but
potobello'
all charbroiled chicken are good
croissants are good
chocolate cake is good (I might go to carls just to eat cake!!!!)
cheese cake
cookies (... and cookies!!!)
hash browns
french toast

Can not Eat
Pickles
burritos
Breaded Chicken
Special sauce
Classic Sauce
low carb burgers
chili burgers

Saturday, January 2, 2010

What went wrong today

  • It was cold 71, all I want to do is crawl in bed when it is cold.
  • I had a dream about miscarrying.
  • I forgot about the primary activity today and did not take my kids to it.
  • Brother Gray asked me to feed the missionaries, I did not say no because I felt I should say yes.
  • I could not work, my work computer would not power on.
  • I will not be able to work tomorrow because I will be waiting for my computer still.
  • We have no money, I am stressed about paying all the bills.
  • windows antivirus did not work.
  • nod32 antivirus did not work.
  • I lost the photos on the kidi art studio of Khali's family and they were my favorites.
  • I slept in.
  • I did not know where to start for the home project.
  • I started a master plan for the moving, instead of just starting in, and the master plan stressed me out.
  • I put in allot of work, and deleted allot of photos, and only cleared up a little bit of computer space.
  • I was stressed because I lost my work computer so I downloaded carbonite on my home pc.
  • carbonite is only a 15 day trial and we can not afford to buy it in 15 days, I thought it was at least a 30 day trial.
  • The first back up takes a long time at carbonite.
  • The phone lines at the new home have a buz that will get in the way of me working.
  • I do not want to call Brother Gray back and cancel the missionary dinner. But we don't have enough money for a nice dinner for the missionaries.
  • I wonder if there was aluminum in the pizza at the party last night....
  • DUH!! there was aluminum in the cup cakes. that is the real problem!

What did I do today that worked
  • I deleted allot of photos from the computer to clear up space.
  • I downloaded carbonite.

What was today like
  • I layed in bed allot.
  • I did not want to be arround my kids.
  • I normally love cleaning my new home and wake up right away because I have so much I want to get done.
  • Instead today I dreaded cleaning.
  • I tried to plan today instead of working, which stressed me out more.
  • I got nothing done...
  • I normally get quite a bit done.
  • I was cold.
  • I could not stand any noises the kids made more then chatter.
  • and even the chatter was only tolerable when I was in a different room.
  • I did not get anything done, this is the most frustrating.
  • I was in a bad mood all day.
  • I was impatient with the kids.

All of this because I forgot and ate a cupcake at my nieces birthday party last night.